While this photo was taken yesterday, today officially marks 42 weeks! Pretty damn crazy. Hopefully soon we’ll be counting the age of our sweet girl instead of her gestational period, but until then, I’m feeling good! Excited to have the weekend with my sweet, sweet husband to relax, walk and be in love.
So, this baby still refuses to show her cute little face, but I’m feeling confident (ish) that given a little more time, she will. Soooo… This morning I called our doc to ask (with a hint of beg) if we could postpone our induction, which was scheduled for tomorrow, until Sunday or Monday. She has hesitantly agreed.
That means that we still have loads of time to relax/walk/acupuncture/breast pump/sex/evening primrose oil/clary sage oil this baby out of me.
And in the meantime, I have to apologize to my family and friends, as I will likely be remaining off the grid. For some reason, it seems to be helping me stay relaxed and positive to stay relatively close to home and with little-to-no contact with the outside world. I’ll resurface soon with an amazing little baby in tow. Thanks for being patient with me.
Yesterday felt like a really productive day. Baby seems like she could be a smidge lower and I was having contractions all day (starting the night before and lasting through bedtime). Even more exciting was that I officially lost my mucus plug. I had thought I saw a piece of it in the toilet in the afternoon, but wasn’t totally sure. Then, around 8 or so, a big, pinkish-tinged chunk came out. I called Mark into the bathroom to check it out. We high fived 🙂 The rest of it came out around 9.
I went to bed super excited thinking, “this is it!!” And was even more disappointed when I woke up to pee a few hours later and had not a single sign of labor. Today was pretty much the same… Pee induced contractions, but nothing like the day before. Needless to say, I was a little sad and discouraged today.
But, the hubs and I took a 3.3 mile walk (we downloaded an app that tracks your distance) and by the end, I was finally feeling better. It took probably 2 miles until I started really talking and once I did, I felt way better. I explained my frustrations and disappointments of the day and felt like a little weight was lifted. Like I could get over it at that point. And now, I feel ready to get some rest and start fresh tomorrow with my third acupuncture session.
Also, as a side-note, I love acupuncture. Both days I’ve left feeling really good. High energy, positive, and progressed. So hopefully tomorrow will be another good one!
At 11 days late, I’ve been trying everything. Today’s adventure, acupuncture from a doula and trained labor/prenatal specialist.
Wish me luck!
Turns out, after leaving our appointment in tears and explaining to my hubs how much I didn’t want to face all of the inquiries about my progress or post-due status, Mark emailed our families and my close friends asking to be a little sensitive and give me a little space. While I didn’t know what he did until after my tears had dried, I am so incredibly grateful. I was able to wallow in the exact way I had hoped… In peace.
Now, it’s not that I don’t love how much everyone cares and how excited everyone is…. It’s just yesterday, I needed to sort through my emotions. I know baby girl will come when she is ready, and if she is unable to reach that decision on her own, come Thursday night, the doctor will help her to make her journey.
It’s interesting, when Mark spoke to my mom yesterday, she mentioned that the babies in our family tend to be born within a few days of other family members’ birthdays. This coming Wednesday would have been my Grandpa’s 88th birthday. Maybe she really is showing us the circle of life. Maybe, already in her infancy, she wants to bring us peace and remind us to be happy on that day. Or maybe she’s just a stubborn little gal like her momma.
Anyway, yesterday afternoon, Mark and I took a 1-2 hour walk down to and through this nature preserve and back to the house. It was a beautiful day and a great way to spend it… Although my feet and back were a little sore afterwards. Then, it was time to head out to my bride-to-be’s house to help her set up for her wedding this weekend. Mark and I helped from about 5 or 530 until a little after 11pm. The place looks absolutely amazing. Her vision really came to life and looks perfect.
On the other hand, my back is killing me. We have to be back out there today for the rehearsal dinner at 2… Until then, I’ll be resting.
Just so you don’t think I’m on the ledge, I will say that I was reading our baby’s zodiac sign “stuff”… She’s a cancer. They say that cancers sometimes linger to make a decision, but once they do, they’re ready to go.
Maybe that’s what is going on here.
So, take a few more days, baby. Decide you want to meet is and then come quickly.
My tears have stopped for now, but I can’t help but lay here feeling totally defeated. Come Monday, we will have to schedule an induction for next Friday. I know a lot can happen in a week, but somehow it doesn’t change how I feel right now. I decided to take the afternoon to just wallow a little.
While the news does mean the chances of me Going to my friend’s wedding this weekend are high, which I’m very relieved to hear, it also means I’m going to be surrounded by people speculating on how late I am, what I should be doing, telling me to relax, etc. Hopefully the focus can stay where it’s deserved… On the beautiful bride and her groom.
I just really hope this baby finally decides she’s ready to come out and does it on her own. I really do not want to be induced. The doc attempted to strip my membranes today, so we’ll see if that does anything… Besides hurt of course.
Last night I woke up at 11:30 or so from my first “painful” contraction. I put the word painful in quotes because I know it will get worse and really, it wasn’t terrible. Anyway, I had the thought of, “this could be it,” but thankfully was able to get back to sleep. Alas, this was not it and here I am on day 5 post due date.
Today I am back at work after having Monday and Tuesday off, which has been nice. I’ve been trying to get as much done as possible and really tie up loose ends. My productivity was interrupted; however, by an appointment to go see my friend’s momma who has SO GRACIOUSLY offered to attempt to fix my dress for the wedding I’m in this weekend.
I had been putting off getting the dress tailored until I had a better idea as to what my body would look like. As you might imagine, I did not think it would look like it does today, which is ginormous. In fact, I was hopeful that I’d have a 2-3 week old baby by the time the wedding hit. Clearly not the case.
Anyway, I didn’t think it was going to be a huge job because last time I tried on the dress, it seemed like everything fit but the chest portion. Turns out, this is not the case anymore. My friend’s mom is adding in 5 inches of fabric from top to bottom in attempts of making this dress fit. The challenge? I only have extra fabric for the top, chiffon layer, not the bottom layer of fabric. So, while we did the best we could to match, the underlay fabric is a bit darker. Oy. I’m going to be a fat, sweaty, disheveled mess. Hopefully it will magically turn out perfectly.
As a little pick me up, I did grab an ice cream cone form Baskin Robbins on my way back to work. So that was nice… maybe not what I needed, as I’m clearly pretty giant, but helpful… from a mental standpoint. I’m feeling great again 🙂
Minus my feet that is. Holy smokes. Yesterday I spent about 6 hours sitting at our kitchen counter and when I finally looked down at the damage to my feet, it was too late! They were SO swollen… like, I’ve never seem them look worse… they’re flippers.
Oy. They’re a little better today, but I can literally feel them jiggle when I walk. That’s just not good. Other than that, check out these fun pics I rediscovered yesterday from our honeymoon…
So, I’m now 4 days post due date and still feeling pretty good… HOWEVER, I’m a little anxious. Honestly, not totally horrible, but definitely a little anxious. My remedy for such anxieties is simple… 1) stay super busy and 2) try anything and everything. So, here’s what I’ve been trying…
Of course, I’ve been continuing the regular natural induction methods I’ve been employing for the past few weeks. These include
- bouncing and rolling my hips on the birthing ball
- squats & pelvic tilts
- spicy food
- tons of walks
- Perineal Massage with almond oil
But, I’ve added some additional ones. Now, before you go off trying all of these, I am no doctor and have no idea if they work or if they’re safe for you. Anyway, here’s what I’ve been doing:
- Massage & Chiropractor – Yesterday I had a massage and the woman pressed all of the labor inducing pressure points. She also worked on my hips. I’ve also been going to the chiropractor more regularly (1-2 times per week). I saw her yesterday and she said she thinks my hips are ready. I don’t know about that, but I’m definitely feeling ready.
- Swimming – On Saturday, I took a nice swim. I also tried to do some squats in the pool. No idea if this helped, but it sure did feel nice… also, gave me quite a few contractions.
- Evening Primrose Oil – I’ve read that you can stick these capsules in your lady parts, but that’s just not my thing. Instead, I’ve been taking one pill three times a day with food daily for a couple days now.
- Clary Sage Oil – my friend swears that this worked for her. 1-2 drops of the oil on a cotton ball and then applied to your feet at bed time. Then, put the cotton ball under your pillow. I did it last night and will continue tonight.
- Dates… I can’t remember why or really much about this one, but I’ve been eating a few dates each day.
- My doula also recommended some exercises, which I’m going to try today:
Obviously, this babe is going to come when she wants, but in the meantime, I’ll keep doing all this weird stuff that likely has no effect on when my body and baby will be ready.
Yesterday I went in for my first Non-Stress Test. The test was pretty darn easy… I laid on a recliner chair and relaxed while hooked up to two monitors. One measuring baby’s heartbeat, one measuring contractions of the uterus. Then, I had to push a button every time baby moved.
Baby has no stress, which is great. I figured as much… she seems to be happy as a clam.
As for me, I think I’m doing pretty darn well. Sleeping isn’t amazing these days, as my hips get pretty sore and I’ve had a little insomnia, but I can’t complain too much. And my mood, it’s been pretty good I think. Maybe double check with my husband on that one?? But really, I think I’ve been staying pretty positive. I find that I get crabby or down when I’m not doing anything.
As for how I feel the baby is progressing, it’s so hard to say. I definitely feel more pressure in my pelvis, but I don’t know if it’s much different than it was last Thursday. And I don’t think my belly looks much different. So really, I don’t know. I’ll be back at the doctor on Thursday, at which point, we’ll do another Non-Stress Test and schedule an induction if she hasn’t come yet. I really hope that if she doesn’t come this week, I’ll be able to keep my calm. As time ticks away, I can see the anxiety building up.
But, at least it will be a VERY busy weekend if she doesn’t come. My friend, Ashley, is getting married and I’m in the wedding. So, we’ll have rehearsal dinner all afternoon/evening on Friday and then wedding on Saturday. It’s such a hard struggle. On one side, I REALLY want her to arrive right now, but on the other side of things, I REALLY want to be at and be a part of my friend’s wedding. Definitely a very strange mind struggle going on… not that I have a choice either way. So I guess there really is no struggle?
It feels a little cruel to have neglected my blog for the 4 days post-due date. I’m sorry to say, it isn’t because I’m sleep-deprived with a new baby. While I might be a touch sleep deprived, baby is still inside.
So, here’s our weekend: