All of my bouncing and squatting and stressing don’t seem to be working. I’m pretty much the same as I was last week… the new stats:
Dilation: 1/2-1 cm (doc “did me the favor” of poking her finger all the way through the cervix, which technically makes me 1 cm, but not really. This is pretty much where I was before, although my doc didn’t poke through last time. She said that sometimes just “getting a finger in there” helps to get things moving. We’ll see. The thing I know for sure is that it wasn’t comfortable.)
Effacement: 70-80% (so, this is a little higher, but doesn’t really get me too jazzed)
Position: -3… AGAIN! (this is what totally makes me growl. I know, I know… the mantra. She’ll come when she’s ready. But can’t she just give me a little peace of mind by coming down a smidge?)
Weight: 1 lb gain. (I’ve stopped stressing about this. At this point, I’m so f’ing giant it’s not even worth the worry. What’s another pound?)
So, the gist of the visit is that I will likely be taking at minimum the full 40 weeks and up to 42 weeks. My doc, who originally said she’d let me go 10 days past my due date, is now saying she’ll let me go to the full 42 weeks, which brings us to July 11th. That seems like an eternity. But really, it’s not that I feel like I need her to come today or even next week, I just want to feel like we’re making progress. But apparently, she’s not ready… so, we’ll wait. Patiently… ish.
Obviously by the tone of my post, you can tell that my mantra didn’t really work. I can’t help but feel disappointed. I was definitely feeling worse right after my appointment than I am right now. I’m still a week out from my due date, so there’s still time. And ultimately, there is nothing I can do but, well, nothing.
The one little predicament is that my doctor is 90% sure she’s head down, but because of the baby’s very high position, she can’t be 100% sure (because she can’t get a good feel of the baby). She’s given us the option of getting an ultrasound because if the baby is breech, I’ll have to have a c-section. Last night, I had a dream that all of a sudden, I felt her head on top and in unison, the few people around me said, “<GASP> You need a c-section!!” This makes me want to get the ultrasound, but really, it doesn’t feel like she’s head up. I swear I feel kicks and knees and butt on top. So, I think we’ll end up skipping it.
Anyway, I guess it’s time to relax and enjoy my quiet time because once she comes, I’m sure it will be a thing of the past.
Try not to get too discouraged with progress, I really do believe it can all change in a day! As far as the position, I heard that if you push the butt (or what you think is the butt..up top) and the whole baby moves..you got the butt. If it’s her head JUST the head would move if that makes sense. There’s a website (you may have even posted this) that helps you determine position http://spinningbabies.com/baby-positions/belly-mapping I personally am NOT at all good with this and ONLY know what I know cause I had an ultrasound every week for the past 4 weeks- and kept asking. But even after that he still moved a lot the other I think about 180 degrees so chances are he could change again….these babies have their own plans! I’ll be praying for peace for you until your sweet little girl arrives…and then for more peace 😉 We’ll need it!
Thanks for the positivity! I know you’re right. As for the little babe positioning, two things… 1) I’ve totally read that website, which makes me laugh because that likely means we were googling similar things and 2) When I push on the “top,” the whole babers moves. I really do think she’s head down.
Yay!! That’s good news 🙂
It will be all good. You will be great. She will be wonderful. And all the waiting, discomfort and overwhelming mix of emotions will be gone in a snap the first time you look into your little princess’s eyes! 😊 Just breathe…. and know that soon you will breathe in the most beautiful scent you will ever smell when you kiss her forehead for the first time. We’re going to say a prayer in Shul tonight for you and her to be well and perfectly happy – and SOON! xxoo L & J
Thank you so much. Love you both. Feels good to have your thoughts and prayers with me! It’s such an emotional roller coaster these days.